Tuesday, September 28, 2010

You can eat whatever you want, but you're going to have to work to get it off..

Never have these words rang more true than right now. About a month before I found out I was pregnant I was talking to one of my sisters on the phone about pregnancy and how about when I got pregnant I would be so excited because I could just eat whatever I wanted. I hadn't really thought much about what I had just said when she replied "well you're right. You can eat whatever you want but you're going to have to work that much harder to get if off." I thought about what she said and thought well that kind of sucks now that I think about it but I won't be getting pregnant for a while. HA. 
Now that I am pregnant I have found that it's been kind of a struggle for me. It's been really hard for me to wrap my brain around the fact that I AM going to gain weight and that I have and that there isn't a whole lot I can do about it. I sometimes think well since I am going to get fat might as well enjoy it and eat whatever I want. It's been very hard to have some sort of self discipline knowing that I am going to gain weight really no matter what. Then there is the fact that I am in land of Provo where everyone is pregnant and everyone that is pregnant is skinny. I know I shouldn't be complaining because I am right on track with where I should be at this point and gaining weight but it is hard to not get a little down sometimes. My sister Jessica is awesome because every time I see her she tells me "you don't even look pregnant" but that's because I wear baby doll shirts to hide my bump or pooch or whatever you call it at this point. If I wear my regular shirts that don't flow out around the belly I look like I am just fat. I apologize for the lack of pictures lately as this has been the reason why I haven't really wanted to take pictures. I will try and get some up as soon as I can. 

Pregnancy hasn't been ALL bad.  

 1. Eric and I heard the baby's heartbeat and It was so surreal. I know my baby is there but to hear the heartbeat made it so real. I even knew where my baby was when the doctor went to find the hearbeat. Every time I would cramp in the beginning of pregnancy it would always be on the right hand side so when my doctor first started looking for the heartbeat on the left hand side I thought to myself you aren't going to find it there and sure enough when he went to the right hand side he found the heartbeat.

2. WARNING: this next part gets personal so if you are uncomfortable with personal things don't read. My boobs have gotten so big!! This is a perk because now I can finally relate to all my sisters as they are all larger chested. It's nice to not feel like a man. 

3. Before I got pregnant when I was hungry I would eat and then could usually eat a little more even though I was full. Now when I'm starving I will eat but when I am full, I am full. I can't stuff more food down no matter how good it tastes. I guess I thought it would be the other way around when I got pregnant. I do get hungry more often though.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

I want to sleep!

I have been a very fortunate girl and haven't thrown up once. My mom and sisters never threw up and didn't really have morning sickness and I really haven't either but all I want to do is sleep. ALL the time! Then when I do try and sleep for some stupid reason my body won't let me! I will randomly wake up during the night and not be able to get back to sleep and I keep telling myself maybe it's my bodies way of getting me ready for a baby but then I think my body wouldn't be that mean to me. I really shouldn't be complaining because honestly I have only had 1 day that I really just felt blah but other than that I have been fine. So basically everyday I look forward to sleep and then I get crap sleep so then the next day I am

So you would think I would just take naps. Ha yeah right. If I take a nap I will sleep seriously all day. Eric has been so awesome through all of this cause I have not been the nicest person. He is always asking what he can do to help. I am sooooo looking forward to the second trimester when I supposedly will be less tired. I have a dr's appt next week for my 10 week check up and Eric and I will hopefully be able to hear the heartbeat!

Anyway enough complaining! I am SOO excited for the holidays! I love love love love Halloween and am way excited to go to gardner village! I love going even though it's always butt crazy with tons of people. I love all the cute little shops and the carmel apples. But be warned! You can't go there and not buy something. It's like impossible. I have tried but not only do they have Halloween stuff they have Christmas stuff too! I have been telling people I think it's really bad timing to be pregnant during Halloween, Thanksgiving AND Christmas! I'm doomed. If you see me and I'm a big ball don't be a hater.

I have decided the only good thing about September is the return of football! Finally. I'm not gonna lie I really hate basketball. It's sooooo boring. It's so nice to have the Cougs back in action! Go BYU! Happy fall everyone!